"who am I kidding" meaning in All languages combined

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          "ref": "2009, Raymond James Hancock, Necroman:",
          "text": "The alternative to that is of course the chilling thought of Lucifer. I don't like the idea of that so much. Who am I kidding though? I kill people! People, who do horrible things, but people none the less.",
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        "(rhetorical question) Said by someone who, upon the realization that they were kidding themselves, wishes to start thinking in a more sensible, reasonable way."
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          "word": "whom am I kidding"
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