"what is this I don't even" meaning in English

{
  "etymology_text": "The run-on and fragmentary structure of this phrase is presumably intended to mimic literally being rendered speechless.",
  "head_templates": [
    {
      "args": {
        "head": "what is this I don't even"
      },
      "expansion": "what is this I don't even",
      "name": "en-interjection"
    }
  ],
  "lang": "English",
  "lang_code": "en",
  "pos": "intj",
  "senses": [
    {
      "categories": [
        {
          "kind": "other",
          "name": "English entries with incorrect language header",
          "parents": [
            "Entries with incorrect language header",
            "Entry maintenance"
          ],
          "source": "w"
        },
        {
          "kind": "other",
          "name": "English entries with topic categories using raw markup",
          "parents": [
            "Entries with topic categories using raw markup",
            "Entry maintenance"
          ],
          "source": "w"
        },
        {
          "kind": "other",
          "name": "English terms with non-redundant non-automated sortkeys",
          "parents": [
            "Terms with non-redundant non-automated sortkeys",
            "Entry maintenance"
          ],
          "source": "w"
        },
        {
          "kind": "topical",
          "langcode": "en",
          "name": "Internet memes",
          "orig": "en:Internet memes",
          "parents": [
            "Comedy",
            "Internet",
            "Memetics",
            "Drama",
            "Computing",
            "Networking",
            "Philosophy",
            "Theater",
            "Technology",
            "All topics",
            "Art",
            "Entertainment",
            "Fundamental",
            "Culture",
            "Society"
          ],
          "source": "w"
        }
      ],
      "examples": [
        {
          "ref": "2012, Michael Kaemingk, \"SOPA bill fails to address actual piracy issues\", The Spectator (Seattle University), 25 January 2012",
          "text": "My own personal hell came to pass on January 18th, 2012: Reddit and Wikipedia went offline. Yes, the point was to raise awareness about the intrusive, unjust Stop Online Piracy act. And yes, the blackout was politically influential and reached millions over a period of twelve hours…but what was I supposed to do? Play in the snow? Actually talk to humans in real life? What is this I don't even."
        }
      ],
      "glosses": [
        "Used to indicate that something has left one in a state of disbelief or confusion."
      ],
      "id": "en-what_is_this_I_don't_even-en-intj-lIPP4iBs",
      "links": [
        [
          "Internet",
          "Internet"
        ],
        [
          "slang",
          "slang"
        ],
        [
          "disbelief",
          "disbelief#English"
        ],
        [
          "confusion",
          "confusion#English"
        ]
      ],
      "raw_glosses": [
        "(Internet slang) Used to indicate that something has left one in a state of disbelief or confusion."
      ],
      "tags": [
        "Internet"
      ]
    }
  ],
  "word": "what is this I don't even"
}

{
  "etymology_text": "The run-on and fragmentary structure of this phrase is presumably intended to mimic literally being rendered speechless.",
  "head_templates": [
    {
      "args": {
        "head": "what is this I don't even"
      },
      "expansion": "what is this I don't even",
      "name": "en-interjection"
    }
  ],
  "lang": "English",
  "lang_code": "en",
  "pos": "intj",
  "senses": [
    {
      "categories": [
        "English entries with incorrect language header",
        "English entries with topic categories using raw markup",
        "English interjections",
        "English internet slang",
        "English lemmas",
        "English multiword terms",
        "English terms with non-redundant non-automated sortkeys",
        "en:Internet memes"
      ],
      "examples": [
        {
          "ref": "2012, Michael Kaemingk, \"SOPA bill fails to address actual piracy issues\", The Spectator (Seattle University), 25 January 2012",
          "text": "My own personal hell came to pass on January 18th, 2012: Reddit and Wikipedia went offline. Yes, the point was to raise awareness about the intrusive, unjust Stop Online Piracy act. And yes, the blackout was politically influential and reached millions over a period of twelve hours…but what was I supposed to do? Play in the snow? Actually talk to humans in real life? What is this I don't even."
        }
      ],
      "glosses": [
        "Used to indicate that something has left one in a state of disbelief or confusion."
      ],
      "links": [
        [
          "Internet",
          "Internet"
        ],
        [
          "slang",
          "slang"
        ],
        [
          "disbelief",
          "disbelief#English"
        ],
        [
          "confusion",
          "confusion#English"
        ]
      ],
      "raw_glosses": [
        "(Internet slang) Used to indicate that something has left one in a state of disbelief or confusion."
      ],
      "tags": [
        "Internet"
      ]
    }
  ],
  "word": "what is this I don't even"
}